Very early in the process, a deep dive into my genetics was done to see if I carried the genes to be predisposed for breast cancer.  My results came back negative for what they call the BRACA family of mutated genes, which is good for generations to come.   

But, I like answers.  So as much as I was pleased to have the results of this test come back in my favor, I remained curious.  I just had to ask my oncologist, why did I get breast cancer?  

I’m sure he hears that question all the time.  But this time, he couldn’t link it to my family history or genetic mutations or other health conditions or age or anything else for an easy “out” answer….he just said that my cancer occurrence is completely random and sporadic….the sort of cancer they can’t link to the “why”.  That I’m too young for environmental factors to have run their course.     Furthermore, he said it’s human nature to want to either blame yourself or to get a answer to the question of “why”.   This makes me comfortable in loving the way I lived life before cancer …and it makes me continue to take it to the fullest!

But you can’t help take more note of things that are unhealthy in general.  We all hear about the “scare” in certain things —cell phone waves, shower curtains inhalants, plastic water bottles cehmicals..the list goes on and one.  Each story created around just how damaging things are to our bodies in general and the doom to come…and in my research I can name 100 things I could have changed in fear of getting breast cancer, but I would NOT have lived life.   For example, the list of top toxins in costmetics are in 95% of the products in our home, and I’m pretty sure they are in your home too.  From my best lotions down to the J&J baby lotion we all grew up in. 

For me, I need to get used to the fact I will never know why I got cancer and just live life with health in mind!

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