Archive for March 5th, 2010

So, I’ve faced the worst scenario and I’m ready to deal.  So Friday, March 5th is our date with the Breast Specialist.  I think it myself, I’ve done the duty of facing worse case scenario…so I’m ready to know more and get moving on next steps.  We arrive to the breast center and the loving team of people are just a grace from God in their words, their approach and their handling of me, their new patient.

I find going through all the new patient administrative bits wonderfully distracting….just like any other doctor appointment.  But as I sit there, I know there is a ludicrous amount of severity of what I’m sitting there for. 

The office schedule was running behind and we could have rescheduled.  At this point, why?  I already had my set of next “10 Days” of planning set mentally…and this was a milestone in the plan.  We could wait.  In fact, I could have sat in that waiting room for 100000 hours frozen not wanting to know what reality could present itself. 

So we sat and waited.  I tried to soothe one of my greatest pet peeves of doctors running late with my phrase “Someone needs the doctor more than me”.  I quickly realized, I had been moved to the end to give me all the time I needed with the doctor.  I still sat there thinking, well…maybe someone still needs the doctor more than me?! It was me, I needed the doctor most that night.

We met Dr. Provonost – an angel on earth.  Her expertise, her knowledge and her ability to deliver the information truly a gift sent from up above.  And it started and went quickly.  I knew the films showed “highly suspicious malignancy” to which she continued to point out for me and explain what the calcifications in their patterns meant as well as the enlarged lymph nodes…on top of the dense breast tissue that makes it difficult to see all.

All in all, again…I saw the beauty!  Beauty in office team, beauty in the overall feeling from Dr. Provonost and the nurses.  I left sacred to be honest, but assured that I was in great hands…and in Mastercard terms, just priceless!