Quickly I was almost seeing too much beauty in cancer…beauty in the spring blooming time of year that it came to me, my age and health, my non stop will to fight —and overall, I just feel lucky to have these “10 days” and more to plan, do a mental check, drop to the lows to deal and overall, to not just “be taken”. 

If I had to go right into the hospital for some reason, I would have worried about everything from the bills being paid on time, to meeting business commitments, to the closets not clean enough, to that often laughed about worry – will you have a good bra and underwear on when such a tragic day hits!!  

I by no means want to make light of a looming cancer diagnosis and the hell you go through in that waiting for results, but my advice is only tied to how I dealt with it – I faced it as a fact.  If I have cancer, I’m in control because of the planning I did in advance…I WILL NOT be taken off guard.  In fact, I started to thrive on my ability to gain control mentally, emotionally and even physically over cancer….before I had to face it.

And rest assured, I love that I get the chance to go in for less than ideal hospital stay – but my nails and toes will be wonderfully manicured, eyebrows perfectly shaped, face freshly facialed and my hair…well, in a state as if I was born blonde :)

Again, those that know me don’t doubt my approach…for visitors that are looking to help themselves or others by reading my journing…look beyond the disgust, see beauty in preparedness, and take time to feel your BEST before you even step foot to any doctors appt or to the hospital procedures or to chemo or to raditation.  A simple swipe of lipstick or a set of high heels can change your day but changing your mindset.  Again, perhaps just a distraction techinique, but it worked for me…albeit one person, but I want to share if it only helps one other person (…and hope it helps more of course!)