Been awhile since I’ve done an update to the site and for those that stumble upon it — those people I have not met in person…I have to remember the purpose of this site…to help the next person from Day One – Cancer By the Day.
One day at a time is, for me, the best way. I took too much on — in heaps when they should have been smaller steps. But you live and you learn…and life is always a work in progress.
So, April comes around every year…and as the smell of spring hits the air…it brings me back to April 2010 diagnosis –and it’s OK.
My faith is strong and my update is that –not only do the reports show that I’m clear from breast cancer, but that now two years out, even on the most terrible days, I continue to see new beauty all around!
Each day is a gift. And as a very wise 13 year old boy said in the first bar mitzvah I went to last weekend – “Thank You God For Getting Me To Today”.
As time passes you see how many people changed with me along the way…there’s no doubt that life does go back to normal, the way it used to be and battling cancer very slowly becomes a distant memory (not that it is ever forgotten!)…and at the same time there are people that kept positive changes in place!.
I continue to be touched by so many different things across the people we know…and in that very special circle is Bob…please join in in support of his run for Breast Cancer :)
I’ve gone to post an update for all to know what’s new and what’s going on in my circles–and I had the clear sign that I’ve strayed way too long…the login and password completely escaped me!
That’s not good…and for someone that’s so organized, control freak, type-A , ENTJ and detail oriented — i’m shocked I never recorded the login details…which showed me how much I never thought I’d forget the access to CancerByTheDay.com — but I guess things happen and life goes on.
And that’s so the case…life has gone on. I’ve been so very well - happy wise and health wealth wise.
That was a new phrase that someone gave me this week…and I really liked it. I’ve never been more energized by the balance in my life…a new found beautiful thing that’s really comes naturally now. With the girls all morning…and then on to a work load that is in synch with what matters most — MY LIFE..and those I love.
I’ll always be a worker..no doubt.
But now, it’s all just so much more clear in terms of where work without the pay check but all enjoyment matters — being a mom and wife first…and surprisingly, that’s left the precise amount of time for the supply and demand to kick in as an executive consultant.
Not that I would wish the last year and a half on anyone, but I don’t have regrets because of all it brought to me …and all that it also took away in a great way that I’ve been lucky to see :) Newly found Chucky Cheese family time included…
I have to be honest …and with all the followers that might not have connected with me directly over the last few months…it’s tough to keep up this “Cancer By The Day”.
I never, in my most broad scope of thinking, thought this story would go beyond me.
At this point, just one year out from my radical double mastectomy, I figured it would be posts and updates from ME having finished my chemo and radiation therapy.
Did I ever think I’d be spared? No.
Did I think I’d be sharing someone else’s story? No. (nonetheless my sisters!)
I know now that I am in the rare subset where the cancer, as aggressive as mine was considered, didn’t spread further. It took over half my left breast but it sat still and I guess didn’t choose to meet my lymph node system.
As you know if you’ve been following, my sister was not so lucky. Her mammogram picked up a mass, not my invasive DCIS type of cancer, and given it’s location close to the armpit, it had spread.
The good news – body scans came back clear, so again – early detection is key. Please, I don’t nag (ok, other than my husband) but please don’t wait or delay tests.
It’s strange to say, but obviously things picked up early are greatly beneficial to your health. And me and my sister had a wonderful sisterhood before this hit, but we are never closer…and this will always be a glue stronger than anything you can imagine.
OK, now I realize the post title I started with didn’t get covered — but that’s OK.
I’m scattered more these days and care less about being perfectly in control…so, when I thought of this post it was me thinking of the ironic nature that at the last chemo treatment, Anna lost most of her eyelashes…that’s a tough one. Being bald, not easy, but eyelashes, it’s the beauty in your eyes that you find when you lose you hair…and the lost of eyelashes – a tough one, at this stage.
But, with two weeks past from the last chemo treatment, hair starts growing back. So as you lose eyelashes, you gain your hair growth. Gosh, I have to be honest, that’s not a fair balance. But again, not much of this process is. BUT, we are positive and smiling.
This week my sister and I consider it our “off” weeks…a week with no chemo appointments and where we typically sprint to get everything done before the “on week”. Next week is the LAST “on” week!
We are thrilled that the 8th and final chemo treatment is Monday and at the same time, we know that the end is not there. But rather, the following two weeks where the chemicals do their work…where days of aches, pains and fatigue kick in.
Each round has been a bit worse and different than the prior treatments effects. The feelings of a “blanket coming over you” typically hit right after the treatment, but never enough to not stop us from having a nice dinner together post treatment!
Then a bit of a waiting game…days 2 and 3, usually OK-ish. Day 4 and 5 strong fatigue, body aches, some nausea…and Day 6 either a real dozie or a sign of the start of the climb to feeling better. BUT, there are times where a day of illness hits out of the blue, shame you don’t know if it’s just part of normal life!
We are cheering for Monday to close one chapter in what we see as recovery…and then there’s a months rest before the radiation begins. The story continues….